under the influence of Tao
by Tree and me
Is Tao essence or all?
Tao as named specifies.
Tao as manifested clarifies.
Tao as desired fulfills.
Unnamed, unmanifested and undesired Tao is essence .
Alone we are together.
Tree, me and Tao.
Alone we are together with Tao.
This is the essence.
However, by naming (by saying “alone we are together”) I feel belonging.
This is vanity born of fulfillment.
Naming leads to desire leads to manifestation.
This is living.
This is the all.
That which I know I do not know.
This is Tao.10/13/2003
Death is the essence of the witness of Tao, the hole.
I live in comfort and serenity interrupted with life through desire.
When desire gives way to emptiness there will be no need to do.
I will live in bliss until I die.
To study Tao is to prepare for death.Life is the all of Tao, the whole.
Life and death are the same.
They manifest at different times, but view the same whole (hole?).
The essence of Tao is without time.
The all of Tao is with all time.10/17/2003
Question without desire (to know) and wonder is fulfilling.
To question without desire is to wonder.
This wonder is fulfilling.
Then desire and fulfillment are balanced.This is the beginning and the end.
This is bliss.
Yet it is less than essence.
It is balanced.Anticipation is desire.
I wanted the tree to hug me back and it did not.
When I put this desire aside I felt trees hug.10/24/2003
I visited tree despising authority. I have separated understanding Lao Tsu ’s poems from my understanding of everything.
The all of Tao, like the beast, is amoral . The essence of Tao is beauty. Life lies between them (see “feelings and a therapy ”). It is felt. By living in feeling the indifference of the beast is seen as ruthless.
Through desire I can be benevolent. Without desire I can only be wise. I am neither wise nor benevolent. Both have been put aside for wonder. Both are kept for vanity. There is always more.
Rather than embracing Tao, live within it. Embrace the feeling of wonder and live. Be the fodder.10/31/2003
What is the nature of touching
(an embrace, a thought, a feeling, all linear combinations, Tao the all, Tao the essence)?
I wonder and am fulfilled.
Tao asks every question and answers none.
(See “reconstruction up , what is the question?”)11/1/2003
What is the sound of one hand clapping?
Essence.
What is the sound of two hands clapping?
All.
There is no difference.
What is the question?How do words come to me through tree?
What is the question?
Now I get words and feel healing.
Tree can talk!
I belong (I love).There is enough time.
The bellows fills.
Patience.
Wait for the child to ask then ask the child
“what is the question?”.11/3/2003
Thanksgiving, the result of gratitude, heels me.
I speak.
You say.
Our conversation is null and silent.You speak by shedding your leaves.
It’s nothing, merely life and death, beauty, Tao.The wind blows.
The leaves fall upon me.
It feels as a caress.The leaves fall like war upon humanity.
It is life and death.
It is nothing, a caress that makes feeling in me.
Though Tao is stoic, I feel.
If I learn to feel with tree, then war and peace will be like the leaves falling around me.
When I am ready for death I will feel with tree.
In the meantime a dip now and then is tonic.Thank you tree;
heal me;
thank you tree.11/7/2003
Put aside the unimportant and find what remains is unimportant.
Important/unimportant is without meaning.
In the matter of understanding the wordless put aside continuums (and negations).
There is only declaration (of existence).It is a matter of honoring my ancestors that I wish to hear the words of Lao Tsu.
By taking on serenity my vanity is balanced so that I can begin in the middle.Tree, you are my ancestor.
The tree says,
“Yes, and understanding begets wonder.
At first question to answer to question, then question to question, until finally question without answer.
This is wonder.
Being wordless I live in the middle.
I live in wonder.
Tao begins (and ends) at the center. “11/8/2003
11/9/2003 The union of negation and declaration is all, yet from a point of separation.
The separation gives point of view, a judgment.When I live in passing, I live in Karma.
When I live in the moment, I live in Grace.
In Tao there is both.In Tao space my ancestors can mix with the moment.
They can be here and now.
In and out, come and go, with/without.Listening with my soul is good for me.
What is good, what is, or what is the question?
My ancestors help me to wonder.
When chicken soup is the answer, hocus-pocus is not.
There is I and not I.
This separation is my point of view.
It is my identity.With death the separation ends.
What begins?
Wonder?
Again and again the steps of life?Everything?
Emptiness?
I live in wonder now.When I transcend moments, I live in passing and separation ends.
Life and death are the same in Tao space.
Death is the negation of life, a point of view.Negation has functional value.
It shows the center to those who have lost it.11/10/2003
“from emptiness comes existence comes reality”
or
“ from emptiness comes reality “
or
“The uncountable clustering of nothing is one. “4/24/2004
Self importance is in being among less than everything and therefore vain.
Serenity is to be without vanity.9/1/2004
Legends are made in beauty.
Accuracy is not that important to the heart of humanity.Plans involve people, events and ideas.
Hope is the faith that a possibility exists.A nice thing about love is that you can give all your love over and over again.
Metaphors give feeling.
Declaration gives meaning.
Affirmation gives faith.
Feeling, meaning and faith gives understanding.A trianary view produces infinite meaning.
All lead to understanding Tao that varies between essence and all even while including essence and all.
<>Majesty fulfills desire and emptiness is not.
Is Majesty mistaken or true?
The feeling, the impression of grandeur, stands before consideration of truth.
Majesty is true feeling but can be mistaken.
Majesty influences people to believe.
Is Majesty mistaken or true?
No, it makes as much sense as asking if a horse is more or less.Belonging is love.
Understanding is abundance.
Argument is luxury.
Beware of luxury.The desire to be part is ever satisfied.
A consensus has the same structure as everything.
A harmless old man begged not for money but for consideration.
I kept my importance.
I went to my tree to pray and broke a stick .
I did not consider what I was doing until the stick was broken.
Now I understand him.
How casually we destroy.
Stop, think, consider.
We live in a slave society.
The purpose of government is to establish order.
Good government establishes a path of opportunity for anyone to gain his or her freedom.Depression is a sensible alternative to anger and shame.
By accepting authority you allow authority to affirm.
Consider the burden.Get help, transform, hope, believe, reconstruct,
and live as you wish to be;
but first surrender.
9/19/2005
Meditation is unbounded consideration.
The words from without are more difficult to understand that the thoughts from within.
A book is a one sided conversation with a bigot
and an efficient way to gain knowledge
Read as you would handle dynamite,
thoughtfully and carefully!
Books use majesty yet have none.
9/29/2005
Without words there is only majesty.
9/30/2005
It is easy to be humble before beggars and kings.
Humility before the arrogant is another matter.
Humility before the arrogant results in consideration.
Given consideration the arrogant are frequently right.
This is the reason for humility.
6/30/2006
<> 7/8/2006 I am ready for everything but unprepared for nothing.
<>To resolve religious difference let us put aside the founders of religions.
<>Let us look at the creations proposed by these people instead.9/3/2006
Words require judgment.
All manifestation is judgment.
early June 2007
Consideration is a process of judging the truth and validity of words.
Yet the most accurate words in the world are meaningless without feelings.June 24, 2007
Though I wish for desire and fame it would likely curse me
for what I have without fame and without desire is the need of God.August 17, 2007
Prayer is best served by a God who receives all burdens and responsibilities.
Prayer, however, does not require the existence of God.
6/25/2008
If you trust you need no explanation.
God and gravity are both real.
Neither has mass.
Every idea lies between nothing and everything.
Manifestation is an idea processed into a reality.
Reconstruction begins with the universe and ends with myself.
Live at the beginning of the end.
4/6/09
A prayer that takes me out of myself.
You are the tree.
You are the root.
You are the earth.
You are the beasts.
You are the people.
You are the corn.
You are the sky.
You are the sun.
You are the stars.
You are the universe.
You are the void.
You are the essence.
11/11/09
The infinite Alls compose the one Essence...
or not.
May 10, 2010
Within the bounds of reality lie common facts(such as the sun will rise tomorrow) and beliefs(such as god has mass).
Outside the bounds of reality lies what is. Here, all can be doubted. While mass is real, force is the best metaphor for
what is.
May 15, 2010
My feelings are a spiritual judgment of my senses. I have feelings about everything.
When I hugged my tree I felt a range of spiritual sensual judgment. Is it possible my feelings are a window to an
inclusive spirituality?
May 31, 2010
Doubt is an essential part of consideration.
June 2010
Is the fate of the self attached and unattached to two selfs? That is, is it with and without mass and energy. Is
it two selfs? Could it have seeds of two natures?
What is the misconception of self that requires repressing in order to recognize self as inherently existent.
July 2010
Recognition, ego, grandeur, majesty. To never be free of these may be heaven or hell. It is the promise of
organized religion.
August 2010
An atheist is his own god. An agnostic does not consider any meaning of god. A theist believes there is a theology.
The deist calls his theology "God ".
September 2010
When I was young I wished only for unbounded consideration. Today's wish comes from yesterday's wish. I wish my behavior to be ethical, my attitudes to be moral and my considerations to be disciplined only by
unconditional love. After all, we are all in the same barrel.
October 2010
Knowledge is a strange thing when it cannot be trusted. Trust is a strange thing when it is without knowledge.
Faith is the default necessary to begin.