Reconstruction1975 Divorce happened.  Finally I failed.
the trip down


Soothe my soul’s wounds with strokes of red semen bled from sorrowful eyes led by my own monster’s pain at the moment he discovers his soul mine.
Such may be my fair in life,
to tell the hours of my bleeding.


Truth is just one subset of paradox.


One day, but only at the instant before my death, I wish to know if word or belief comes first,
and if they occur together than how are we the greater master of these views than random order?


 In every day there are times of loneliness.
Being alone at these times allows it to come and go.
To be with company would be a postponement.
Loneliness is still a contributor to full life.


I have quit one thing in my life, being a slave.
I have quit it many times for I have frequently found I am my own master.


 When enslaved I plan my future for it allows me to celebrate what I will become.
The ciphering itself is a joy for I look forward to behaving as I have behaved.
This is the essence of pride.


All information does is give me more authority.
 It does not make me right more often.


“What is the question?”
appears to be the master riddle and the answer appears to be
“what is the question?”
To solve it I observe the truth and write it.
I have never found the truth or expect to find it for it changes.


Rather than my life serving my goals I allow my goals to serve my life.


Life is lived in passing.


Each generation must find its own pride,
and each group in its generation,
and each thing in its group,
while remembering all drummers are different and the same.


Youth is frequently credited with temper for not realizing they may be telling the old what they have not seen before.


Pause, a term with a useful meaning.


To a diamond uncut is more attractive.


I live in the universe.
It makes me feel secure.
A house keeps weather from me.
It contributes to my counting.


Temperance is not a virtue but has its rewards,
which makes it worth consideration,
which is one of them.
This contributes to my counting.


When I decide things with myself I find what I believe slowly.
When I use rules things go faster.
Both have advantage.


It does not matter that the world is doing fine without me.
Trying to save the world is fun and counts my universe.
Besides, action without expectation is humor.


Humor comes from each point of views antithesis.
A laugh at myself is a joy for I see myself in and out of context.
This by merely saying to myself.


People without belief establish pathos, which by having an antithesis is a humor.
When I am without belief I learn to enjoy my suffering by knowing some of life is a hangover.
A pathetic belief in nothing creates a coexistent antithesis creates laughter creates joy.
Laughter is joyous sound.


Blanking the mind allows concentration that allows the ability to follow conversation.
Following conversation leads to curiosity to interest to understanding to affection.
Without a blanked mine the result is affectation.


The busy mind has made education for educators,
government for governors
and business for businessmen.
But life is for the living.

 
I am a beer snob for I enjoy every sip.
It is probably because I have not resolved whether I like it or not.


Hardness does not make a task worth completion.
Then humor tells me not to work it to death.


I have many thoughts which are my own, a satisfying possession.
The only use of possession is satisfaction.
To use does not require possession.
It is possible to have the satisfaction of possessing the universe while offending no one.


Possession of another person’s needs is no person’s right
yet what is needed is a matter of judgment and needs give way to wants.


Pleasure derived from what I have to do is no reason to stop enjoying reducing what I have to do.


I always ask except when I don’t.

 
A little indulgence is good for the soul and the sole.


I will migrate toward others like myself who enjoy finding what they don’t know of themselves and using what they do.


I play with a full deck.
I hope the game never ends.
I will die soon enough.


The price of living is a willingness to gamble life.
In this way I fill my self with wonder
while recognizing by being alive
I have denied peace in favor of life,
though a dip in peace now and then is refreshing.


Humanity  is a paradox.
Knowledge cannot be used to effectively predict or guide,
only to consider and know you have considered.


If man is set above rather than within the universe
he cannot feel one with it.


A man’s word is more his bond than law.
His promise is a promise to himself.


Life is lived in passing.
Everything answers a question by producing quest.
This is the time of the quest.


Living is the process of putting myself together.


It is difficult to explain with more words what is clear with less, but it is fun to try.


I take pleasure in counting my pleasure which creates the pleasure I count.


If optimism is a humorous disease, I glory in sickness.
If it is not I laugh with glory.
I find counting and oneness coexist with humor.


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